First of all, I will not be able to enjoy the eve of Ramadhan and pursue fasting due to "the month".
Having multiple menses cramps. Shoots.
On top of that, I don't know why people surround me are really getting on my nerves or just because I'm sensitive right now? No!! Can't be.
Seriously, I don't need you to arrange my life anymore. Is it a need to do so? Its not that I repulse to your kind help. I just need to be independent. I need choices. Not options.
I tried to be optimistic but with what you're telling me what I'm suppose to do and such won't help me or bring me anywhere.
From the very beginning, you knew that I'm the stubborn girl among all.
I don't need luxurious kind of wedding because I need the money to pursue something else that will surely determine my future.
I wanna do things I love doing.
I wanna become the person, I aimed to be.
Every career is a noble profession. I believe.
I hate arrangements. Urgghh.
Apart from that, I'm much relatively contented now. Having loving boyfriend.
Although he's busy working, he still find sometime for me.
No matter how much we argue and add-ons misunderstanding, I guess that keep us strong and going. In a month time, "ROYNN" will turn big 3 and shortly after that is in November will be boyfriend's birthday and in December will be his official ORD.
Before that, we are not sure celebrating this festive. Maybe we're just gonna get ourselves a pair of matching suit and that's it. Probably only celebrating the first day of Syawal.
For our yearly anniversaries, we have no plan as yet.
I guess that's it for now.
Gonna watch tv and "sms" boyfriend.
Editted.
Having multiple menses cramps. Shoots.
On top of that, I don't know why people surround me are really getting on my nerves or just because I'm sensitive right now? No!! Can't be.
Seriously, I don't need you to arrange my life anymore. Is it a need to do so? Its not that I repulse to your kind help. I just need to be independent. I need choices. Not options.
I tried to be optimistic but with what you're telling me what I'm suppose to do and such won't help me or bring me anywhere.
From the very beginning, you knew that I'm the stubborn girl among all.
I don't need luxurious kind of wedding because I need the money to pursue something else that will surely determine my future.
I wanna do things I love doing.
I wanna become the person, I aimed to be.
Every career is a noble profession. I believe.
I hate arrangements. Urgghh.
Apart from that, I'm much relatively contented now. Having loving boyfriend.
Although he's busy working, he still find sometime for me.
No matter how much we argue and add-ons misunderstanding, I guess that keep us strong and going. In a month time, "ROYNN" will turn big 3 and shortly after that is in November will be boyfriend's birthday and in December will be his official ORD.
Before that, we are not sure celebrating this festive. Maybe we're just gonna get ourselves a pair of matching suit and that's it. Probably only celebrating the first day of Syawal.
For our yearly anniversaries, we have no plan as yet.
I guess that's it for now.
Gonna watch tv and "sms" boyfriend.
Editted.
I'm done with watching tee-vee.. I'm quite sleepy at the moment but for sure I can't sleep. There's too many things on my mind. I don't feel the vibe the blog but me being me, the fickle minded as ever will tend to take back my words and jot down my emotional turmoil on this innocent cyber space. Blogger is again becoming a total loser with a capital L. I can't upload my pictures. Should I change to 'onsugar' instead. But the thought of "pindah-randah" is total lecehrable plus lecehrabakkk.. Lazy bum-bum!!Shuts! Shuts! Shuts!
On the other hand, my sleeps are often disturbed. Nigthmares. I hope this will end soon. Pranoya.
"Allah, please help me with this and please soothe my soul and calm my nerves".
Never fail to murmur silent prayer before I hit the sack. It helps though.
I accidently throw my tantrums at Mr. Boyfriend. Oh my! I hate when that happens. I ignored his messages. Feel kinda guilty, a bit. Egoistic bitch! He sounded worried though. Urghhh.. F*** lar.. Leave me alone!
Praticals next week and I'm not looking forward to it.
Skipped the sewing crash course because I don't feel like doing it.
Munch on junkies because I love it. (oh ya, jempot makan semer; haagendarzsmalltubcookiesandcream)..
To sum up, I'm at my lowest.
I'm sleepy, I cant sleep. I know I just said that earlier.
Have not done my nails. (because I just broke my nails. crooked nak mampos!)
Hair feel so frizzy. (nie part bedek!!)
Skin complexion are so dry. (not so bad lar)
Stomach feel so bloated and "bonchet". (shhh..)
Assets shrinked. ( no commets needed ;P)
Have not brush my teeth and facial before hit the sack. (Can do later.)
Woahhh.. I just sounded like one drama queen. Layan please. Thank you.
Alarrrmakk.. Now what? Stomache? Grrr..
Skip that!
Marriage wise? Brother is gonna married next year, not sure which month but hopefully soon.
Mummy wants me to have the occassion with him. A Big NO-NO. Capital N and O.
First of all, I'm not on talking terms with him for god-knows-since-when. Trivial issues that shall not be disclosed. Second-ly, I ain't sharing my big day with him because its suppose to my day. My damn day. Like Duuuhhhh!! Third of all, like I've said many times, I'm just planning on what's important. I don't care or mind if the relatives and cousins starts talking that I don't have a proper wedding because like hello. If you afford it, that's absolutely fine. I still need to save up for my upcoming degree. Right? Futhermore, I'm not pursuing here, locally.
Dear boyfriend is pursuing his career in hotel line basically. He needs to save up too.
Although, technically, we're from very different background. I'm much happy to see him change to becoming that responsible man at a very early tender age. I mean, I've gone through hell and shits with him. From the bittersour to sweetsalty. I've been betrayed countless of times but the reason why I still stayed because I know he needs someone to lead him the way. He may not be an erudite kind of person but I'm sure he will succeed one day. Relationships is all about faith and trust. Girls, no matter how much guys play you out, the sweetest revenge is to play it cool and just remained the girl you are. He will definitely comes back to you at the end of the day.
As for my boy, he was defeated by this battle called relationship. His tears finally fell when I was laying unconsciouly and motionless. Bruises, scars, swollen face and etc. I've been there, done that. I still remain the girl who caters to his needs. Played it cool althoug before hand I already knew he have flings with another girl. It hurts. I'm all alone going through that. No friends.
But now, he changed. A-lot. He's not the bad-tempered guy anymore. Likewise, I'm the one with temperamental issues. And now, he's the one who have been making up and cool me down. Org kate, tukar angin! The best thing about him, although he may have flings in the past, everything is just in sms and friendster. That's it. Takde lar melampao sampai jumpe2. Tu part, memang da kene tgl dah.. And because of that, he needs to change his mobile number and shut down his friendster, including mine to be fair.
I'm only one with facebook but he can still access them and trust his babygirl.
Ok lar, think I blabbered too much.
On the other hand, my sleeps are often disturbed. Nigthmares. I hope this will end soon. Pranoya.
"Allah, please help me with this and please soothe my soul and calm my nerves".
Never fail to murmur silent prayer before I hit the sack. It helps though.
I accidently throw my tantrums at Mr. Boyfriend. Oh my! I hate when that happens. I ignored his messages. Feel kinda guilty, a bit. Egoistic bitch! He sounded worried though. Urghhh.. F*** lar.. Leave me alone!
Praticals next week and I'm not looking forward to it.
Skipped the sewing crash course because I don't feel like doing it.
Munch on junkies because I love it. (oh ya, jempot makan semer; haagendarzsmalltubcookiesandcream)..
To sum up, I'm at my lowest.
I'm sleepy, I cant sleep. I know I just said that earlier.
Have not done my nails. (because I just broke my nails. crooked nak mampos!)
Hair feel so frizzy. (nie part bedek!!)
Skin complexion are so dry. (not so bad lar)
Stomach feel so bloated and "bonchet". (shhh..)
Assets shrinked. ( no commets needed ;P)
Have not brush my teeth and facial before hit the sack. (Can do later.)
Woahhh.. I just sounded like one drama queen. Layan please. Thank you.
Alarrrmakk.. Now what? Stomache? Grrr..
Skip that!
Marriage wise? Brother is gonna married next year, not sure which month but hopefully soon.
Mummy wants me to have the occassion with him. A Big NO-NO. Capital N and O.
First of all, I'm not on talking terms with him for god-knows-since-when. Trivial issues that shall not be disclosed. Second-ly, I ain't sharing my big day with him because its suppose to my day. My damn day. Like Duuuhhhh!! Third of all, like I've said many times, I'm just planning on what's important. I don't care or mind if the relatives and cousins starts talking that I don't have a proper wedding because like hello. If you afford it, that's absolutely fine. I still need to save up for my upcoming degree. Right? Futhermore, I'm not pursuing here, locally.
Dear boyfriend is pursuing his career in hotel line basically. He needs to save up too.
Although, technically, we're from very different background. I'm much happy to see him change to becoming that responsible man at a very early tender age. I mean, I've gone through hell and shits with him. From the bittersour to sweetsalty. I've been betrayed countless of times but the reason why I still stayed because I know he needs someone to lead him the way. He may not be an erudite kind of person but I'm sure he will succeed one day. Relationships is all about faith and trust. Girls, no matter how much guys play you out, the sweetest revenge is to play it cool and just remained the girl you are. He will definitely comes back to you at the end of the day.
As for my boy, he was defeated by this battle called relationship. His tears finally fell when I was laying unconsciouly and motionless. Bruises, scars, swollen face and etc. I've been there, done that. I still remain the girl who caters to his needs. Played it cool althoug before hand I already knew he have flings with another girl. It hurts. I'm all alone going through that. No friends.
But now, he changed. A-lot. He's not the bad-tempered guy anymore. Likewise, I'm the one with temperamental issues. And now, he's the one who have been making up and cool me down. Org kate, tukar angin! The best thing about him, although he may have flings in the past, everything is just in sms and friendster. That's it. Takde lar melampao sampai jumpe2. Tu part, memang da kene tgl dah.. And because of that, he needs to change his mobile number and shut down his friendster, including mine to be fair.
I'm only one with facebook but he can still access them and trust his babygirl.
Ok lar, think I blabbered too much.
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