This song has been on repeat mode since just now. So addictive. Oh my!

On the other hand, I have mixed feelings now.
Should I be upset?
Disappointed?
Relieved?
Mum gave in. She confronted me. As always.
She knows I'm the stubborn one.
We're ok, so far.
But I swear if anything were to happen sooner or later,
I'm mentally and physically prepared.
Sidetrack, there is some changes made.
Find out soon.

Day by day, I'm losing my grip.
It's been awhile now, since I freeze every problems within me.
And now, I could no longer handle the feelings and bearing more grudges.

It's my decision. Wise choice.
My problems always have to start with him, and I can't possibly know the reason why.
I'm getting exhausted each day.
I don't need people telling me he's my blood, my own flesh or what so ever.
I knew. I already knew.
I don't wish to add salt to the wound but now, I have to.
It concerns me.
And to you, I wished you knew that I'm actually not hurting you.
You're hurting yourself.
I do not know when all these will come to an end but I do hope, soon.
But if, fated. It meant to be that way.
I'll accept them with open heart.
Constantly act strong, but the fact is, within me, I'm just a weak girl.
I don't wish to know why you hated me and not treating me, the way I should be treated.
I don't wanna ask anymore and I don't wanna know.
I know, I can't find the answer to them.
The right answer.
All the time the response was "He did that, because he love you".
Does resorting to violence equals to love, affection?
I have my reason why I took up psychology.
Although initially, I have strong passion for fashion.
It fades away, somehow, or rather.
If it was totally my fault, I'll accept it.
But partially, it was his too.
Why people covering his arse?
It really blew me off when you wanna have "that" conversation with me.
Your accusation won't resolve the conflict, seriously.
What kind of "red handed" you need when I have the solid-concrete evidence?
Tell me about it?
Why must I chose to still keep quiet when he hurt me enough?
You said you were tired, me too.
I'm tired of being nice and giving in to that egocentric beast.
There is not a need to emphasize my mistakes.
I knew mine, better then you.
How bad I am, compare to that grand-daughter of yours?
How better her mother, compared to me?
Please stop comparing because I'm simply me.
Being rebellious is one way for teens showing protest.
I'm one of them.
I own up to my mistakes.
Yea, you blamed me because I used to be your precious gems but I gave a lot of disappointments. Let's flash back, what kind of problems I created in the past ?
I chose my friends wisely although I have some from "not-so-good-background".
Now friends, does matters to me especially my closes ones.
They are there to catch me fall.
I hope you will not look down on them, anymore.
You kept asking me, what do I want?
Why don't you asked me 5 years ago and fulfill them?
Only now? I'm afraid it's too late.
I will pursue this case no matter what.
Even if it will cost my life, Mum.
You can spot my lies, shits or what so ever, but please don't forget this, I can spot yours too.
You portrayed yourself as a mother figure in that kind of manner(which I will not disclose it here)? Don't blame me if I followed yours. You are trying so hard to instill religious skills and knowledge in me. Yeah, atleast you do, right? Unlike me.
But your ways seem so wrong in my eyes.
Ok fine, I know you have been living on this earth way before me.
You got for me everything that I wanted, but you forgot one thing, my FEELINGS.
You don't know how hurt I went through after that incident.
Gradually, I started to forget about it and be optimistic, but yet, urghhh..
Shall I said more?
Let me summarize it,
you have the right, alright?

And to you, you are not playing your part too.
I guess, you have to leave.

Pissed off!

How's your first day of fasting?
Me?
Although I can't fast (with valid reason, of course),
I didn't eat through out.
I went for a Job Affair at Suntec City and my lovely boy accompanied me after his work.
I was already sulking when he said, he can't accompany me but when I woke up around noon on that Saturday, I received a message saying he'll be accompanying his baby-girl.
Get ready and met up with him at City Hall.
I applied for quite number of posting.
Sales and also Office line.

Sidetrack, below are the food that I enjoyed during the first day.
What I like about fasting month is that my mother will take the initiatives to cook sumptuous dish, especially my favourite, but I guess this year, I won't be enjoying that much due to certain thins. And that totally sickening.

Macaroni Goreng. My neighbour send it to me.
Siap ader udang and telor.
Melampao kaww.

The main dish of the day. Laksa Lemak.
My Mummy Monster was so eager and asked me to capture her skillful cooking dish.
"Rynn, amek gambar nie skali lar. Mummy masak nih." ;p
You can see she's holding the dish. *drools*

Not forgetting, we also have our snacks or what you call "pencuci mulut".
Kueh dadah!

There's epok2, goreng pisang style ape ntah, and mee goreng.
Tu pon, jiran sebelah menyebelah yang kasi.
Full of food!! Haha.

And yesterday, I satisfy my cravings for Ice-cream.
Initailly wanted to have that Haagen Darz, again.
Changed my mind and settled down with Ben & Jerry's.
Finger-Licking-Good!!
I'm in need of this!! MUST!!

Let me ask you a question,
what you feel when you're really tired and all you need is your comfy bed,
but when you came home, and you see someone that you are not in favour,
just sleep in your bed without any consideration?
Two words.
PISSED OFF.

I was at the bf's crib yesterday night as he insisted me to stay over.
And I did.
Make a move by 8am.
Reached home and Mummy was in the kitchen.
Since it's fasting month, she will be home by 9 every morning before continuing work at 10am.
What I did was, upon opening my bedroom door and see that bitch is on my bed,
I grabbed my towels and off to the toilet to have my proper bath again.
Slammed the toilet door.
Quick bath.
Got ready. Grabbed my things. Keys, hp, wallet and laptop.
Slammed the gate twice (because I went back in again, to take my things).
And now, here I am at the library.
Tuan punyer bilek keluar pasal tetamu yang tak diundang melampaww..
C'mon, first day of fasting, what you guys usually do if you're kind enough?
Prolly, fast with family kan?
That's what me and boyfriend did.
I let him go home to fast with his family.
Have sense of respect lar.
DUUUHHH!!!
To that idiot, "ko simpan pas tu tanam sudah barang2 kao".
Tak ingin uh aku pegang.
Pandai kan, barang aku ko pegang, almari aku semer ader brg ko, takde pulak aku nk cakap byk.
Org ckp jgn melebeh!!
Pardon me!!
I'm seriously fed-up!!
That bedroom where lies my black history that shall not be disclosed and tu tempat jugak, ko buat maksiat!! Pakai otak ke tak!!
Although that incident happened 5 years back, still, I'm not recovering.
There's reason to why I abscond-ed and such!
Sape tahan, darah daging, ko buat mcm musuh!!
Nak sedih pon buat ape kan. No more tears to cry!
Aku da tanak amek peduli lagi.
The last time you strike again was last year that I manage to let it out all.
Suke2 perh.
Now you know the real me.
After all this while, I bear grudges against you!
Yeah, you!!

Private blog shall be updated later on.

I'm out!! Need a piece of my mind.

Home since 11 plus.
Washed up and cam-whore. Lol.
Whilst watching tv, Mummy came join me.
Seeing her so restless, I offered to give her massage.
Kesian Mummy I. Lol.
After that had my proper bath and here I am not.

Met dearest at about 8 plus.
We decided to walk around CWP. Mendak to the max!!
And this boy here, got himself a Tee.
Suke lar tuh!!
Sampai jer rumah, teros try!!
Vain!!

I force him to entertain me.

"Syiok sendiri"
Before meeting him.

Pardon the flash.
I super love my new eye-shadow!

I kinda feeling sleepy!!
Urgh!!
Bye lar..

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Before I start, I would like to congratulate my Bestie, Lin who passed her TP just now. She called me just to share her joy. Hehe. Love you, girl.
Take me out in your car, okay?
I'll have mine soon.
Insyallah.

And another thing, since today is the eve of Ramadhan,
I would like to wish all my Muslims friends
"Happy Fasting".
"Moge puase dan amal ibadah kamu diberkati Allah"
"Aminn ya robbal'allammmiinnn"


Just got home from town with Mummy.
Just a short trip since she already make her plan with father; they will be heading the mosque later. So that means, I'll be left alone!!
No, cannot!!
Wait a minute!
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Ok good! I already made my own plan for the night.
Will be rushing down to woodland to meet the mr. sexy. :P
I miss him ! Awww...
Will be packing some rendang ayam for him and some food to munch.
Thanks to the Mummy.

Ok, just now was a very short trip!
Paid my fees.
Hit Mark and Spencer to get some cookies.
Then off to Gap to get my top! Nice.. Hehe..
After which to Robinson.
Seriously, nothing captures my attention.
Pfft!!
I wanna have my late lunch..
And then get ready to meet the Boyfriend.
Update later.
Toodles for now.

Ramblings...

Evening.

Right now watching "Janji Diana" with dearest Mummy.
She's talking about my future. Stressful.
Gosh. I'm half-listening. Fine. I know what to do ok, Mummy Monster.
Saturday will be attending this Career affair with the boyfriend.
Yea, I gave in and messaged him.
On the 30th will be attending this Basic Accounting Course at APMI Kaplan.
2 down. 2 more to go.
All involve money. Grr.
Tomorrow gonna hit the town with Mummy to settle the fees and hunt for my bag and hers. Haiyooo.
I'm so gonna watch Victoria's Secret Fashion Show later and the father will sure occupy the hall because today will be his turn conquering the tv to watch his wrestling. That means, I have to watch in their room. Nvm. I like!
I know, this is so random!
And Saturday, gonna survey our things again.
My words are all jumble up in places.
Pardon me!
Ehk, I heard thunder!!
Raining huh?
Ok good!
Bye darlaz.

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Morning Ramblings.
I hate cramps because I tend to be super cranky. Period.
Still not on talking terms with boyfriend as yet because I don't have the mood.
Have been ignoring his messages from yesterday night.
Well, I guess I need to be alone for now.

Had a good sleep after watching "Seniman Bujang Lapok".
Before that, had a real good conversation with Lin.
She made me laugh. Oh my, I miss that girl.
Ok, I miss boyfriend too. Blearghs.

And now, still in bed.
Feel like punching my stomach!
My back still hurts.
Double grumpy-ness.

Mummy was kind enough to make a hot chocolate for me knowing the daughter will be very grouchy. Oucchh.
And plus to lessen my "attitude", she gave me some kachings to buy the bag that I wanted so badly. Should I get the paris hilton bag, again. We'll see.
FTT next month. Oh my! Double trouble.
My E63 is a bitch!
Yea, the appearance may seem wow!
But the applications and stuff like WTH?
I could not even put games.
Should I get the OMNIA II or stick with the HTC ?
Mummy sure gonna be very jealous.
She wanted to change her phone too. In gold to be specific.
Promise her I will get her new phone when I start working.
As for her birthday, she insisted on her "COACH".
Me and sister are saving up for that. Super terok.
Out now. Got to do the laundry!

"Life doesn't promise you a bed of roses".

Red Dot.

First of all, I will not be able to enjoy the eve of Ramadhan and pursue fasting due to "the month".
Having multiple menses cramps. Shoots.
On top of that, I don't know why people surround me are really getting on my nerves or just because I'm sensitive right now? No!! Can't be.

Seriously, I don't need you to arrange my life anymore. Is it a need to do so? Its not that I repulse to your kind help. I just need to be independent. I need choices. Not options.
I tried to be optimistic but with what you're telling me what I'm suppose to do and such won't help me or bring me anywhere.
From the very beginning, you knew that I'm the stubborn girl among all.
I don't need luxurious kind of wedding because I need the money to pursue something else that will surely determine my future.
I wanna do things I love doing.
I wanna become the person, I aimed to be.
Every career is a noble profession. I believe.
I hate arrangements. Urgghh.

Apart from that, I'm much relatively contented now. Having loving boyfriend.
Although he's busy working, he still find sometime for me.
No matter how much we argue and add-ons misunderstanding, I guess that keep us strong and going. In a month time, "ROYNN" will turn big 3 and shortly after that is in November will be boyfriend's birthday and in December will be his official ORD.
Before that, we are not sure celebrating this festive. Maybe we're just gonna get ourselves a pair of matching suit and that's it. Probably only celebrating the first day of Syawal.
For our yearly anniversaries, we have no plan as yet.
I guess that's it for now.
Gonna watch tv and "sms" boyfriend.

Editted.

I'm done with watching tee-vee.. I'm quite sleepy at the moment but for sure I can't sleep. There's too many things on my mind. I don't feel the vibe the blog but me being me, the fickle minded as ever will tend to take back my words and jot down my emotional turmoil on this innocent cyber space. Blogger is again becoming a total loser with a capital L. I can't upload my pictures. Should I change to 'onsugar' instead. But the thought of "pindah-randah" is total lecehrable plus lecehrabakkk.. Lazy bum-bum!!Shuts! Shuts! Shuts!

On the other hand, my sleeps are often disturbed. Nigthmares. I hope this will end soon. Pranoya.
"Allah, please help me with this and please soothe my soul and calm my nerves".
Never fail to murmur silent prayer before I hit the sack. It helps though.

I accidently throw my tantrums at Mr. Boyfriend. Oh my! I hate when that happens. I ignored his messages. Feel kinda guilty, a bit. Egoistic bitch! He sounded worried though. Urghhh.. F*** lar.. Leave me alone!
Praticals next week and I'm not looking forward to it.
Skipped the sewing crash course because I don't feel like doing it.
Munch on junkies because I love it. (oh ya, jempot makan semer; haagendarzsmalltubcookiesandcream)..
To sum up, I'm at my lowest.
I'm sleepy, I cant sleep. I know I just said that earlier.
Have not done my nails. (because I just broke my nails. crooked nak mampos!)
Hair feel so frizzy. (nie part bedek!!)
Skin complexion are so dry. (not so bad lar)
Stomach feel so bloated and "bonchet". (shhh..)
Assets shrinked. ( no commets needed ;P)
Have not brush my teeth and facial before hit the sack. (Can do later.)
Woahhh.. I just sounded like one drama queen. Layan please. Thank you.

Alarrrmakk.. Now what? Stomache? Grrr..

Skip that!

Marriage wise? Brother is gonna married next year, not sure which month but hopefully soon.
Mummy wants me to have the occassion with him. A Big NO-NO. Capital N and O.
First of all, I'm not on talking terms with him for god-knows-since-when. Trivial issues that shall not be disclosed. Second-ly, I ain't sharing my big day with him because its suppose to my day. My damn day. Like Duuuhhhh!! Third of all, like I've said many times, I'm just planning on what's important. I don't care or mind if the relatives and cousins starts talking that I don't have a proper wedding because like hello. If you afford it, that's absolutely fine. I still need to save up for my upcoming degree. Right? Futhermore, I'm not pursuing here, locally.
Dear boyfriend is pursuing his career in hotel line basically. He needs to save up too.

Although, technically, we're from very different background. I'm much happy to see him change to becoming that responsible man at a very early tender age. I mean, I've gone through hell and shits with him. From the bittersour to sweetsalty. I've been betrayed countless of times but the reason why I still stayed because I know he needs someone to lead him the way. He may not be an erudite kind of person but I'm sure he will succeed one day. Relationships is all about faith and trust. Girls, no matter how much guys play you out, the sweetest revenge is to play it cool and just remained the girl you are. He will definitely comes back to you at the end of the day.
As for my boy, he was defeated by this battle called relationship. His tears finally fell when I was laying unconsciouly and motionless. Bruises, scars, swollen face and etc. I've been there, done that. I still remain the girl who caters to his needs. Played it cool althoug before hand I already knew he have flings with another girl. It hurts. I'm all alone going through that. No friends.

But now, he changed. A-lot. He's not the bad-tempered guy anymore. Likewise, I'm the one with temperamental issues. And now, he's the one who have been making up and cool me down. Org kate, tukar angin! The best thing about him, although he may have flings in the past, everything is just in sms and friendster. That's it. Takde lar melampao sampai jumpe2. Tu part, memang da kene tgl dah.. And because of that, he needs to change his mobile number and shut down his friendster, including mine to be fair.

I'm only one with facebook but he can still access them and trust his babygirl.

Ok lar, think I blabbered too much.

Yesterday night was quality time spend with my Mr. Boyfriend. He came quite early knowing the girlfriend here being an total arse keep messaging him saying that my spine hurts. But, it hurts ok, truthfully.

Fried for for him some wedges, chicken seaweed and nuggets for his late supper.
Bread with durian jam. (maots ok the taste..)
Cin-cao drink.

He turned to me and say
"Bie, I boleh jadi gemok sey you sumbat I banyak makan"
I just laugh away.
We watch movie on my lappy.
Good one!!

Isn't this creature is adorable?
Oh ya, by the way, this movie is coming soon.
Haha.. GO catch it alrights?

So that was it. After the movie ended, I tried to get some sleep and this boyfriend here being so irritating tried to disturb me. He came to me and sing the "perhaps, perhaps,perhaps'' song and seduce me in a very erotic but playful manner. I was laughing my arse off. Idiot!! Then when I was wide awake, he went to sleep! URGGGGHHH!!! MD. AZROY!!!
And what inspired him to disturb me was the JANGAN PANDANG BELAKANG CONGKAK MOVIE. When you watch it, you'll know.


As you can see, my blog is lack of pictures of yours truly.
Maybe 1st, I have l0west-self-esteem now.
2nd-ly, no mood to take pictures.
3rd-ly, I gained weigth.
And the lists goes on.
I know, crappy right?

And now, it's only 8.30am.
Boyfriend already off to work.
He gave me a very wide smile when I woke up this morning.
That ever cheeky boy.

I think I got to go now.

Have you ever encounter at one point of time, you get very worried and start thinking; I mean really do the thinking that sometimes can hurts you emotionally wise and such?
I did. I do. I am now.

I started to think about where the future might bring me.
About my current relationship with family and boyfriend.
About my studies and future career.
Oh my! How I wish for seconds, the world will stop spinning for awhile.

Fortunately, dear boyfriend really tried her best to understand a girl like me.
A girl who wants the best.
A girl who would like to grab every opportunities that comes.
A girl who would love to indulge things that she love doing.
A girl who wanna change her life.

I just asked boyfriend this
"Should I pursue my fashion or stick with psychology?"
He replied
"I thought you have more interest in Fashion? Why not pursue what you like?''
My boyfriend totally understand me, now.
He assured me that things will be alright and he will be right behind me to catch me if I fall.
I love him for that.

But still..
Urgh!!
It is so frustrating.
Now, waiting for the boyfriend to come.. Hehe..
Ok bye!!

Beautiful Nightmare

Yesterday's night, I was at Hubby's crib and guess what? I was abused unintentionally. Haha. It happened when I was asleep when I felt this something was punching my spine. It was the boyfriend. Tido nakal sunggoh.com!! It hurts like hell lar okay? Wadooii .. Nie anak takda bedong kepe time baby.. Melampao kan you.. But he promised he will make it up for me tonight by coming over to give me a good massage. And to add-on to this super duper grumpyness, I'm hungry. Nothing new. Haha.

I met up with bestie Nora Lee at her crib bringing my boy along. Had a good 'catch up'. Thanks for the clothes girl. Really appreciate it. And at last the girl has her own blog.. Lol.. I'm out~..

Monday Blues

I'm supposed to get ready by now but yet, still lazing around on my comfy bed.
It's raining, so what you expect? But already promised the boyfriend to meet him later and girlfriend. I'm starving. Should grab some bite before meeting them. If not, sumpah aku perangai tengah jalan. So, to avoid unnecessary arguments with the boyfriend, I better behave. Haha.. See how!!

Got to go now.
I smell food.

Labour Pains

I watched this movie. Cute one.
About Lindsay Lohan faking her pregnancy in order not to get herself fired as she is the only bread winner in the family (her sister and herself).
Its funny how the way she act like one pregnant women.
Go watch it.

As you can see, I just did a new template for my blog.
Hope it can last.
Tired already.
Meeting the boyfriend later since he'll be having a half day.

I've had a very exhausting trip on Friday.
Morning, had an very ''early'' interview at Tiong Bahru.
I was late due to my poor sense of navigation; by half an hour.. Pheww.. Beads of perspiring was running down my cheeks and I almost gave up finding the location. Oh my. Should have brought my street directory along. I did ask people around but they showed me the wrong way. Called my sister and luckily she helped me, if not, I swear I would have sit down and wail like a mad girl!

Fortunately I got the post as a relief teacher but then maybe I'll give it a pass due to some reasons. Boyfriend agreed with me. See how.
They still required me to take more courses.
Hello, I need that money for something else.
If they willing to sponsor, I'm fine. Hell no!

Made my way home and reached close to noon.
Washed up and did some cooking as I was already starving!
Dropped the idea of eating and had my proper bath again.
Girlfriend called and said she was on the way.
Luckily I decided to shift the timing wise, if not, confirm, kaki ku akan tercabot punyer!!!

So, when the girl meet girl for an outing, we spend our own sweet time, dolling up ourselves.
Sharing make-ups, criticizing, choosing of matching clothes, the right perfume, the right smell of body and hand lotion and a lot more.
That spells F.U.N!

Took the bus to Queensway.
Our stop is IKEA.
She needed to get some accessories whilst me, survey on new furniture set.
However, to my disappointment, I didn't really get the one that I wanted but then the boyfriend promised that we will hunt for it no matter what.
Last resort is to have it custom-made.

Upon reaching our destination, it was slight downpour. The girlfriend made me walk in the rain with the make-up face, luckily covered with bag.
All the way, I was nagging at her, and all she did was laughed at me.
Kurang ajar sey tuh!!
Since we did not have anything for lunch, we decided to grab a bite first.
Sausage bread for a dollar.
Her treat. Haha.

The "Burokness".
No matter how burok we are, we still love each other..
Awww..

Highly anticipated @ IKEA.

About 1800 hrs, we made a move to city hall to meet the boyfriend.
Afterwhich proceed to Expo to see the Mega Raya Sale.
Alarhaii... Regret sey.. Takde bende ponnn..
We just bought some food and settled down outside BK.
Went home and then proceed Woodlands by cab.
Cannot make it.
I ended my day quite early sleeping beside boyfriend.
I was very cranky and grouchy because my feet hurts like hell.
This time round, is the boyfriend's turn to massage my leg.
Poof to sleep.

Thank you, boyfriend.

JANGAN PANDANG BELAKANG CONGKAK
The movie is not that 'wow' but I still laughed at a few scenes especially when Lan Pet Pet do his moves and sing to seduce his victim. Satisfactory.
THE ORPHAN
Good movie to watch. Recommended. The story got to do with my study field now. Multiple personality disorder. Involved a bit of psychology here. Nice....
Do you have any personality disorder? hehe..
ALIEN IN THE ATTIC
See the movie title and you can roughly get what the story is about.
Starring Ashley Tisdale.
Funny movie. The alien are so katik2..

And now, I'm gonna watch labour pain to kill the boredom.
Starring Lindsay Lohan.

Ehk, I suppose to do my template kan?
Urgh!!!

Alarmark. apasal ehk template sunggoh messy skali dkt IE.. View pakai Mozila ok plak. Ape sey.

Gonna get it done later.

Yesterday as mentioned, met up with Shidah at her new homie.

Nice2. Got roof top garden lagi you....

But then the room facing car park..

Alarhaiii..

Bad view..

Feng-shui not good!!

Mcm phm..

Luckily we're not the only girls who did that hard work..

Her friends join in too..

Had canadian pizza..

Sedap uh!! Perrrr...

Got home and shortly after that the boyfriend came my house with injured leg.

Pity him..

He fell down so being the nice ever girlfriend, cook for him dinner and "urot" his leg..

Bengkak habes sey..

Sacrifices nak jmp gf nyer psl, kaki saket pon jln teros.. Haha..

Afterwhich we watch "JANGAN PANDANG BELAKANG CONGKAK'.

Best..

Ok lar kan that movie..

Nak dekat ending, boyfriend already fell asleep beside me... Kesian dier..

Morning2, wakey2..

Siapkan bekal and his off to work..

Tommorow there's plan for me..

Surveying for my furniture and accessories with bestie..

And meet up with boyfriend to find matching baju kurung..

I know, semangat kan?

I don't wanna it to be done at the very last minute..

Nanti colour takde lar, size takde lar..

Lecehrable..

Wuhooo.. Sarah Aqilah won.. You go girl!! Power lar sey..

Private blog updated.

I'm so gonna watch ANUGERAH later on.
So random.

To kill time and boredom, I'm updating this space and messaging the boyfriend.
Seriously, I don't know what to update.

Tomorrow will be heading to Punggol to help girlfriend with her room.
We're gonna pull off some ugly wallpaper. Some spring cleaning and etc.
Saturday will be my awful day because I will be left alone.
What should I do? Let me see.
Rent dvd's and movie marathon perhaps.

Oh ya, when I came home early this morning, all I wanted to do was to hit the sack on my comfy bed lar kan, where else? Because I didn't sleep through out the night before.
When I reached my doorstep, I saw familiar things like a girl shoes, handbag and stuff.
It was super messy and I know someone is home.
Check my room and there's the bitch occupying my bed!!
All I did was slammed the gate, on the tv out loud and lie down on my sofa!!
She woke up about 11 and bath..
Next step was I took off my comforter, bedsheets and pillow casings..
Think what??! Suka-suka? Perangai kan kau!!
Sudah terang aku tak suke kau!!
Takmu step gerek ngan aku lar!!
Dulu so ngade2, my mother's cooking tak makan lar, u only want to sleep on the bro's mattress lar, see all the sexual content dvd infront of my mum.. Melampao kan kau!!
Now da pandai tido katil aku.. Sape ajar? Or you're just lazy to clean up after you sleep on mattress? CB!
I don't favour you at all..
I'm not talking to the mother at all..
I'm out!!

It's freaking 2 a.m in the morning and I seem can't get myself to sleep. Haiz.. Boyfriend is already sleeping beside me. And, my laptop is sucha a bitch!! LOSER!! I'm so gonna send you to the HP company to get you fixed for goodness sake!!
Hubby will be working later on. That means I'm only going home tomorrow.
Supposed to follow my mother and sister's family to Pandan just now since they are driving but this super-manja boy of mine wanted me to stay badly.. See lah, blew my chance of shopping again!! Alternatively I messaged my sister, letting her know things I need to get especially my beauty essentials! And wallet and tote bag and sling bag and my sports gear.. Haha.. For sure they have the hard time coz this missy here is so cerewet nak mampos.
On the other hand, I might be reconsidering working with Shidah at Sentosa. Wee.. Best or what!! Anybody need some bikini? I can get for you some discounts!! Oh ya, Shidah no more staying in AMK!! But the good, ader straight bus from my place!! HAHAHA..

My fully occupied day starts with Friday night.
Met up with boyfriend at causeway point and dine in Delifrance as mentioned previously. Look below!! Sedap seyy.. Not forgetting, we have chocolate croissant for dessert.. Mcm phm la bf!!

Siap air leleh meliuh .. Hehs. Funny incident happened.. There is two sauce that came with the chicken wings. One is normal chilli sauce and the other i assume was tar tar sauce but I was wrong!!! Boyfriend taste it and looked at me with weird face
"Bie, nie tartar sauce ke? Apasal rase mcm spirit je? Pedas rase pat tekak, U sure tar tar sauce?"
And the gf replied
"Uh2 kot.. I tak dgr lar tadi waitress tu ckp ape.."
"Klw tak tar tar, wasabe tak bie"

He stared at me with his feirce eyes.
I could stop laughing.
Infact, it is wasabe.
Unfortunately, I did not snapped his weird face while trying his best to remain macho!
Sorry horr boyfriend..


Saturday Afternoon.

We ditched the plan to JB since I have no Malaysia Ringgit to spend. Sigh. And so, we made our way to Chinatown in search of my furniture but to no vail. Ended up, I only bought accessories for my bedroom.. Super nice lar okay!! After which we proceed to Clark Quey. It was impromptu.
We went around the shopping mall to find myself a dress but nothing captures my eyes. So yeah.. After that, we thought of havig ice cream at Haagen Darz but we simply could'nt find the place.. I remeber seeing the restaurant months back.. Closedown already is it? So we just walk around; admiring those bars and clubs.. The boyfriend was tempting to slack at one of the bar named "Clinic" because of the unique atmosphere.. Next time k dear?

Ehk, the G-max macam gerek je ehk? But hell, super seram or what!! Me and boyfriend decided to stop by just to see the ang-mo's taking those ride.. Jantong da macam pat Jubor lar sey.. Mati hidop balek takkan ku naek!! Haha.. Only then we decided to make our way home.. Before that, sempat enjoy scenery pat boat quey.. We walked from clark quey to boat quey.. Luckily I'm not with heels.. Klw tidak, mao aku melalak setengah jalan!! And futhermore, I did not have any meals that day!! No mood!! Because I'm sleepy and tired.. That morning, I only sleep like 3 hours and I was disturbed.. Haha..

Sunday
Happy 44th Birthday Singapore!!
I sleep like a log since I wake early in the morning.
Hubby went to work and me? Off home.
Upon reaching my place, only then I realised I forgot to bring my keys.
Dialled Mum's number, met her up at Mosque ( dad's working place).
Reached home at 10a.m.
Ader jembalang tido katil aku!!
Binget sial (sorry for the vulgarities)..
Slammed the door and went mum's bedroom.
On the tv out loud and off to sleep.
If mummy finds out, sumpah aku in trouble!!
In trouble for leaving the electricity on for 2 solid hours.
Naseb baek 2 hrs jer..
Sadar, tutop tv.. Pap!! tido!!
Bangon, mandi, makan and went out to meet my girl.
Initial plan was to Adam road to have our dinner but then bdk tu lambat sgnt.
We had our favourite kway teow lar kan, ape lagi!!
We bitched, gossip, pour out and alot more.
thanks for accompanying my National Day.
Even though we did have a proper outing, but the important thing is that we enjoyed each other's company!!
Close to midnight, off to woodlands again to meet the BOYFRIEND.
Something happened.
We talked. We kissed.We hug.
Ressolved.

See that Cina boy? My nephew..
My eye-candy.

Monday (public holiday)

And what about my public holiday?
Woke up pretty late in the afternoon.
Geezz...
We just slacked throughout the day before making plans to CWP to satisfy my cravings for GELARE.

Cookies Kraze Sundae.
Yum.. Yum..

Get ready!!
I need those killer treadmills soon!!
Adious!!

I'm wide awake at this wee hour. Oh no!! I can't seem to get my sleep routine right.. Gosh.. I.N.S.O.M.I.A.. Its not healthy, you see..
Now at my boyfriend's place.. He's soundly asleep; leaving his poor girlfriend all alone.. Nyehs..
Had dinner at delifrance. Chicken supreme pizza, crispy golden chicken wings and fries. Fulled.
Maybe I should tuck myself; joining the boyfriend later on. I'm so goona push him away because currently he's sleeping at my side. How to sleep?


"Have you ever felt left out?" I did. I do.
I know, no link at all.
Just pouring out.

Till next entry.

"AMIDST ;BLOG RECONSTRUCTING"

Thanks for the soft toys dear hubby although I always "perangai" with you.
Presenting Mickey Kenet, Sticth Presley and Poo-Poo..
Bie, I think I need a wardrobe to stuff all the soft toys u gave me.. No place already lar..

Back to chronicling.
My life okay jer lar kan..
House chores. Run some errands. Practicals.Crash Course.
Nothing new.
My weekends are usually fully occupied by my Mr.
I got nothing interesting to share.
Anyone care to give me a job? Hehehe..
Mendak sunggoh sey...
Oh ya, wait a minute..
G-Force was ubber cute..
Recommended movie!!
Mixture of a bit of Alvin and the Chipmunk and the Transformer..
Alar.. How ehk to explain? Hentam uh..
But damn syiok!!
The hamster or guinea pig is a pembelot..
About coffee machine come to live..

Saturday if I can coax my Mum to give me some cash, maybe we'll be going to JB.
You ehk bie, nak beli aper jer tao.. DVD lar tuh kan..
If not, duduk Singapore sudah.. Confirm jam.. Public holiday mah...
Sunday go see fireworks with my best gossipping bitch.. Wuhoooo...
Da lah.. Bye!!

" A Puzzle of a Broken Heart "

My heart is like a whore
For I've given it to many men/guys.
Without questions, without expectations;
With only ONE exception:
The ONLY thing I've ever asked for;
The ONLY thing I've ever expected
Was for their LOVE in return.
But, without exception, without fail
Each one took my heart,
Crumpled it up, and threw it away.
Like my love was worthless, a simple piece of trash;
Something that was easily and frequently discarded.

Then, pieces of my heart started floating around,
Like a piece of paper tumbling in the wind
And I have to gather them up
But some of them will be lost forever;
Some of them I'll never be able to find again.
But those pieces I do regain,
I will try to put them back together with what remains.
So that my fragmented heart will once again be whole.

For now I realise that it isn't worthless
My love is valuable and priceless.
And I saved it for you dear,
Someone I know will treasure my love;
Who will treat it like a special gift
That I've given to you and no one else.
And I hope you will forgive me

For the pieces that I have given away....

This will be my second post of the day.

Just got back from late supper with my sweetest gf ever, Ms. Shidah.
I miss her already. We decided to go out on Sunday to watch fireworks like usual. Selalu NDP aku celebrate dgn kau je girl. Hehehe.. Then next week will be off to Courts, Ikea, Daiso, Sportlight and Chinatown in search for our new bedroom furniture. Since she'll be having her own room, I decided to help her out with her bedroom theme. As for me, I need some changes. Me and bf already planned to get "our" soon to be bedroom furniture. I like it to be english country style with heavy sportlight on my dressing table. Oh ya, I wanna have walk-in-wardrobe in my future house too ehk bie.. Thanks horr..I need some fur, boxes and much more to accessories my room.Opps .. Our room..

Tommorow will be my job interview. Haizz.. Bile lar nak dapat keje.. Like so bored sey.. I wanna have full time job leii.. I'm already the "penggagur terhormat" but with savings lar kan.. Thanks to my Mum who taught me to save money since young.. Now at least i have lilttle money to spare.. If not, confirm me and boyfriend kering sey.. How like that?.. Obviously both of us miss the comfortable life we had when I used to work.. Sorry bf if I burden you too much..

This Saturday bf wanna go JB like again!! Siow uh!! No money already sia..
Ape je tao dier nak beli lagi.. Cincai lar.. I just follow..
But no more Ringgit Malaysia to spend..
The parents, sister and family, aunties, uncles and cousin will off to Nilai, Malaysia on the 15th.
The boyfriend having this pathetic pit at East Coast with his collegues.
That's mean no Saturaday for me!!
Damn!!
Why my naseb so malang..
If I know, I follow my Mum uh.. Tempat mak2 pon ok lar..
Uh2 ehk, apasal tak terpiker, can buy my room accessories sey.. Way cheap!!
Boleh survey barang pengantin!
Kental uh kaw Rynn!! Cheapskate!!
Da uh! Nangke da jadi durian..
Bas da full house pun....
*hentak kepale pat bantal*
Shidah on the other hand working lar pulak...
Oh ya, she's working at Sentosa, bikini shop..
Tu tak penting.. Ader staff discount kan3?
Hehe.. Nanti aku kasi duit belikan aku barang..
Kayla, wanna watch G-Force!!

To be continued; click to log in to locked entries..

Good Evening..
Initially, I wanted to update this blog of mine in the morning when I came back from Hubby's crib. But then, I fell asleep. Hehe. Here I am now. My weekend was not that bad after all although there was some communication breakdown with the idiot boyfriend. Tao takot kan!! I ran amok that very day luckily the bf knows how to handle me if not.. Haizzz.. And he still can say " Dalah Bie, I testing you je. Tadi buat kelakar lar. I ketawe U tak nampak ke".. Kepale otak u uh sotong!! Geram sark aku!!

Saturday Night
I made my way to Jurong to fetch Hubby by 10 plus. On my way, I saw this Chines boy painstakingly wrapping a bouquet of roses. Siap beli wrapper and buat sendiri sey tu anak... Like so AWWW.. But bf better.. He made flowers out of wrappers for me.. Lol!! Reached Jurong 11 plus and I was early again.. Haiz.. That pantat bf reached 20 minutes later after which we proceed to Woodlands. Grab some tidbits and off to his crib.

Sunday afternoon, got ready and starts our journey to JB. Yeah2.. I do my shopping spree at JB.. You would'nt want to know how much I spend. Bf shakes head. I splurge mostly on cosmetics.
A korea brand. Very nice packaging that's why I buy lar.. And not forgetting Carlo Rhino compact powder. I still need to purchase my beauty essentials such as shampoo, hair conditioner, scrub and etc sey.. Haizz.. Next time horr..

Took 950 from Kranji to KotaRaya.. Naseb baek tak jam sgnt.. By 2.30 we reached Kota Raye to have our brunch.

See lah.. Tak senang nak amek gambar.. Can still asked me to post this picture on blog.
"U letak je gambar nie pat blog. See.. Muke pompan, tangan jantan.. Nanti org igt I mataer dgn mak nyah".. Perangai kan!!

Burnched at Singgah Selalu. I had Rice with Ayam Masak Lemak Cili Padi, Kubis Goreng and telur Asin. Whereares the Bf satisfy his cravings for Siput Sedot Masak Lemak and Ayam Rendang. Temptation to eat the Ketam Lemak was high but Bf give it a pass because he doesn't want to dirty his clothes. Kwang3..

Reached home by Evening. Unpacked our stuff. Bought total of 10 DVD's. Naseb baek lepas. Quota satu org 5 kan? Hehe.. Menggila you.. Bought G-Force, Imagine That and alot more.
Bf got himself a New Tee. Habes babe duit. Thought wanna watch movie, but the movie I intended to watch "Jangan Pandang Belakang Congkak" takde sey... Like so sad..
It was movie marathon for us. Whilst me busy doing nails for his Mum and sister, the boyfriend like usuals meddling with his I-phone and ...... the I-phone Jam.. Mari kiter ketawe kan dier!!
I told you already I-phone equals HASSLES!! He have to re-download all the software again and before that need to send for servicing.

He then decided to take URGENT LEAVE on Monday. Madang jer kan. Can still say " You klw ader, i slalu either gi keje lambat or tak gi keje".. Haha.. Arbey slh I lar nie.. F**K YOU..

Monday Rushed to Private Clinic then off his vcrib to catch some nap before going out again and with his cat face, he asked me to stay again for the night. Hehe...

Oh ya, one of my bestest girl gonna move out from AMK.. She's the one whom I have late supper with and last minute outing and now.. Sedih sey..

Rynn : Girl, kau pindah bile?
Shidah : By 8 Aug da kene angkat barang by 16 da kene clear..
Rynn : Wah.. Cepat sey..Tis week is your last week in amk..
Shidah : Ah2.. (insert sad face).. bile nak meet?
Rynn : Aku free giler.. Just book me out.. I go take car license kasi pass cpt2 den anytime I can go fetch you.
Shidah : Aiseyman!! Baek ar girl.. Cant wait!! Haha (hmm.. wait long2 sey tuh)
Rynn: Maybe shud ask my mum for downpayment then I just go buy the weekend kind of car..
Shidah : Klw aku mampu, aku chip in siket k! mesti rindu kau giler bab sey!! (ney part touching!!)
Rynn: Lol! Da mcm mataer sark.. Mcm lar ko nak g perang kat afghanistan. Padehal pindah dekat je tapi jaoh!!
Hehe.. Tis dear of mine gonna move out to Compassvale Lane jer.. Lmao!! I know.. Better than West Coast!! Grr..
I'm so gonna meet her up soon. I wanna buy new furniture for my bedroom!! Theme have not decide yet...

Oh ya, beofre I forgot, I would like to shout out to one of my gorgeous gf ; Sheryl N**** Isabella Bte R***.. Happy 20th Birthday on the August 10, incase I forget again!!
Hey girl, last 3-4 years ago, me and shidah made something for u for ur birthday gift but it was never reached out to you. We still love you babe although we made our own ways and direction. We miss you too, gf.. Good luck aye.. Meet up soon !!