I just need to let out something that has been bothering me since awhile now.

"MENYAMPAH SIALSSS AKU TGK MUKE KO!!

MAKKKKDDDDKAWWW!!

GEDIK NAK MAMPOS!!!

PERANGAI MACAM S*ND*L

ALL THESE WHILE NK ''TANGKAP MUAT" JERKKK!!

KO JGN IGT AKU TAK TAO UH APE KO BIKEN!!

TAK RASE KE "COLD TREATMENT" YG AKU BAGI?

TAK SEDAR DIRI ATAO SEMEMANGNYER BELO??

YES, I HAVE HATRED TOWARDS YOU AND ''YOU''.

DON'T HAVE TO PRETEND MAKING GOOD DEEDS.

AKU TAK MAKAN KEBAIKKAN KO.

JUST WAIT AND SEE!!''

On top of that, I m down with fever, sore throat.. Shuts!!!

It havent subsides yet since Friday, and this feeling drive me crazy especially my bf not ard..

"Bie, u lame uh kene standby. C, I lonely already. Damn U.

Come quick." (NS LIFE SUX!!)

K da bye!

Puas hati aku!

Pardon me for the "minah's" lingos.

Can't take it anymore!

Oh ya, my cute bf here ever get mixed up with gedik and gedek! Cute nak mampos!

Ader ke dier kate aku gedik? When he wants to say gedek at something.. Thanks ehk bie..

Mengamok sekejap aku!! For those who don't know the definitions (which I doubt that u guys don't knw)

Gedik means hard core mentelism. Cannot make it! (asal bole je! btl ehk??)

Gedek means BIG!

Got it?

Tak?

Alar malas uh nk explain panjang2.. sile rujuk kamus..

To Ahlya, shud have informed u that I'm down with fever. I don't wanna spread diseases so i better quarantine myself first. Da mcm kene swine flu.. Ehk no .. Don't ask for it ehk!!

Hubby specially made this using his I-phone software, just for me to upload at my blog. How thoughtful. Muacks!!

Happy 2 years and 7 mths anniversary dear! May we have more anniversaries to come... I know you've been waiting for me to say this all these while
I Love You Baby!!

You wanna know what make me love you?

The Little Things You Do.

Although you replace those real flowers,
With the rose that you made out of Ferrero Rocher wrappings,
I will still love you because of the little things you do.

Those calls from work
Just to tell me that you love me
Those random night sms received,
Just to tell me you miss me
The attached little card,
That came with fresh cut flowers
The little note appear,
Left in the morning on the mirror
That suddenly appears,
When I suddenly step out of shower

Soft kisses on my cheek,
When you think I'm asleep
A how ya doing honey and how was your day?
A warm soft hug behind me
While I do the cooking
A little nibble on my neck
While I put the away dishers

Its the little things that I treasure the most
How they can brighten up my day
Making love to you brings me much pleasure
But its the little things
That keep us together
Those little things
Will make me love you forever

Those peaceful walks
Out in the moonlight
The making up
After a small fight
The way you take me in your arms
And touch my face

How could there be love
If we just lived day by day
No special moments made
For thoughts of yesterday

Those foot massages
After a long day of work
Making dinner
When I'm just too tired to cook
These for no reason whispers
To tell me you care

Those little things dear

Let's do it all over again

Usual random outing with dear gf, shidah.
Usual place. Usual gossips! Love u bestie.. I'm lucky I'm in love with my bestie... Hehe... *wink ketat2*

Boredom strikes! Ney la keje kami. Mcm2 expressions kiter kasi... Amek kawwww!!

Presenting ujang and his gay partner.. Lol.. Kidding.. He's still straight lar.. Lol

I found out another common thing that I shared with my gf. We enjoy dolling up. Planning to take the make-up-diploma course together at school of make-up. Should be fun aite girl. Haha.. Still remember where she used to doll me up for dates; doing my hair, applying make-up and etc. We even share our clothes, accessorize, bla bla.. Not boyfriend ehk.. Different taste tao! K girl, we should go apply k. Muaks!!

(♥ Hubby, Will u?)

Step mane nyer jiwangs jer dier, padehal tgh dgr lagu house blast-kuat-nak-mampos!!

Sile-lah rotate pc/laptop anda atao kepale pon boleey lar nak.. I forgot to rotate. Hentam uh!! Ehk jap!! See those long eye-lashers?? Lawa kan??? Tawwuuuu....

Sebok nah dgn dier nyer I-phone!!! Meluat! Buang uh!!

Tembam sey?? But bf likes it.. So no herans!

K da!!Go bace my entry! Siket sudah!

I m back!!

Just redo my resume to make it more presentable and professional. But still, i'm not satisfied yet. Grr..

So, do i need a rich man?

Yeah. That was like ermm... 4-5yrs back...

I used to be very materialistic. Those kinda bimbo's only looking for labels to accesorize themselves. I'm one of them. Typical me. Name it and i'll get it. So i thought that by getting a rich man and settle down with, will be appropriate. Naive-thinkings. Lol.

Those were the days, i dated a few "rich" guy (reason being fer the inverted comma's because some are not rich because they live wealth on the parents ka'chings). That spells spoilt brat. I admit, I love the "attentions". Just name it, I'll get it.. (Dasar pisau cukur ehk ney pmpn!) However, i realised one thing common about them, they are never loyal. I'm saying this on my general encounters but I do believe some rich guys aren't like that. Maybe 1 in a 1,000,000.. Seriously, I don't like sharing boyfriends. But that is what happened. Rich guys = Player. Random equalisations.

Drop that part.

But after sometimes, I realised that I don't need a rich man to make my life more fufilling and enviable. Face the reality check girls, we can't depend on guys nowadays. Seriously. Trust me. I mean, they are rich and they can do anything, that means everything alright.

Materialistic ways.

This applies to the kind of job that I've applied in the past years. I wanted a bomb kinda salary to provide me the unnecessary labels stuffs. (Ok, i admit till now, but not that terok like last time ehk, purleeezzeee). After much experiences, I believe that I need a job that gives me some kind of satisfaction at the end of the day. And the I must very much enjoy the job. So that explains why I took the current course. I've been alaways inspired to help people. I do help when I know I'm capable of helping. Like listening to my close friends problem. Although I didnt help much, just by listening, I understand it will somehow enlighten the burden by bit.

Rich man?(Hopefully we can get rich together. Fair and equal square ehk Bie. Baru Besssst-aaarrr Ermm .. But if fated my hubby will be a rich man somehow someday, I'll be very glad because I'm with him through thick and thin. We've been through alot of downs lately. Insyallah, our future will be brighter. Ok, that doesn't mean I'm gonna take advantage of him. Lol. I wanna earn my own hard/cold cash. Don't worry, I won't burden my sayang too much.

In this case, if hubby gets rich and wanted to marry another girl, at least I have my career to be proud of. There is still reason for me to look forward.

He plan to continue his studies in hotel management, no doubt dear, I will give you the courage and encouragement that you will need in the process of accomplishing your goals.

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They did managed to find out the father wherabouts. Maria was delighted. However upon seeing her face, the father turned away. Maybe he was heart-broken. Maria clinged tightly to her father. Yet he just stood rooted to the ground. After sometime, the fatther walked away.

Maria and the hosts decided to follow him. He went into a house. Without any doubts, they are quite sure that the father lives there. That means, there is high chance of seeing her mother.

And there they are. Maria's parents. When Maria was being told that they already found her mother, she immediately asked the hosts to bring her nearer. And you know what she did?

This part touched my heart.


She hugged her mother and start crying, apologising her mistakes. The mother kissed her saying things will be alright.. See... That's proven a mother's love.. A mother always being the gentle one who forgives us and accept us back whenever we let them down.. True?? I totally agree with it.. Maria then asked the host to bring her basin of water.

She washed her mother's feet then start kissing while seeking forgiveness.. And after that, she drank the water that she used to washed her mother's feet.. We all know, especially the muslims, that heaven lies underneathe mother's feet (btol ehk) hentam saje lah.. asalkan korg phm sudah. Only then the father welcome her in his warmth arms. Best kan?? Tawuu...



A friend of mine ever question me this, do you need a rich man to make you happy?
Wanna know what's my anwer? Wait for next entry.. Hehe

Truly An Eye Opener

I have this sudden vibe to blog about a reality tv show that i watched with mummy yesterday. Truly and eye-opener. Its for real. Gosh, the show brought tears to my eyes. K enough! It's indon!

Its about a teenage girl merely 20's or early 20's who's blind and work as a dish washer in a small restaurant. Although she's blind, the employer said that so far she have not yet break any plates. Surprisingly.

She have written a letter to a media; saying that she wanna share some story and find her parents.

The reasons why she wanna find her parents is to mend her mistakes and seek apologies from her family. Din't get the story? Hehe..

Now, its only the beginning aite..

Upon receiving the letter from Maria (the blind girl), the hosts decided to drop by the work place to get the full story.


When the hosts arrived at the restaurant, they saw Maria doing her job. Her employer brought her to see the hosts.

Maria admitted that she has a nice employer whom willingly take care of her and gave her job in order to get a stable income so that she can buy medications to cure her blindness.

But what really happened?

She confessed that theres reason that caused her blindness.
She started to shed tears while she continues sharing her past.
She came from a very poor family. Full complete family that includes her parents and elder brother and sister. However, at a very young age, she was naive and kinda protest the way they lead their lives. She got tired of being poor that one day, she ran amok. She start cursing her mother for not being able to give her needs. The father tried to calm her down, but he was pushed away harshly. Despite that, everyone in the family got the ill-treatment from her. After the awful scenes, she decide to run away from home to make her own living.

She did. But as a mistress to an old rich man. Her life drastically changed to a better one. Living in luxurious life is all these while she wanting to have. She started to drift apart from her family. However, one fine day, Allah decide to take back the things she have.

She was kicked out of the house. She insisted of staying and begging the old man. The man pushed her hard that she fell down from high staircase. She accidently knocked her head that caused multiple injuries. Results in blindness.

She regretted her past and wish her acts in the past can be condoned by her family members especially her parents.

The hosts helped her to find her elder brother and sister. But the sad thing is that upon seeing Maria, she was cursed. They repeated saying that they alredy disregard the small sister and wouldn't want anything to do with her anymore. The brother even poured black coffee on her. I think that's way to much! Gosh! Fine, i understand there was sense of bitter disappoinments which engulfed their emotions. But you don't have to go to the extend of lowering your sister's pride infront of public. All she wanted was to seek forgiveness and wanting to see the parents. Mistakes are inevitable. The saddening part was that both brother and sister said that she was child born out of wedlock. She start thinking hard about who are her real parents.

The sister and brother insisted not to give her parents address.

The hosts then decided to seek help from her aunty. The same treatment she gets from her aunty. Despite crying profusely and begging, the aunt gave up and informed the hosts the working place of her father.

Does she get to meet her father?
Did she manage to seek apologies from her parents?
Stay tune!

Result for Foundation Psychology were out. And... I passed!! Wuhooo... Suker noh!! Waiting for one more month before I'm officially graduate from APMI KAPLAN.
So many plans quequing up for me. Mummy has been bugging me to enrol my license. Wait can, till I gather all my courage? Hehe. Nervous. Grr. My bad! But should be all ready by end of this month, insyallah. Still contemplating though, should i take private or school because your missy here wanna take manual. Hehe. Oh ya, pade kakak2 (stop it ehk!) yg tgh tgu TP and da pass kerete tuh, sudi2lah tunjok ajar pade patek ehk? maceh. Especially yg amek MANUAL ehk. Haha. K sudah!
Now my mission is to find for suitable job. Grr. MONEY! MONEY! MONEY! Ermm.. Have to save up. Planning to still pursue my studies after I settle down with at least a stable income.
Psychology/Counselling. Big words. Lol. The course that I took quite troublesome because before I can be a certified psychologist/counsellor, I need to get at least a DEGREE. Apart from that, clock in clinical (insert few hundreds) hours. But seeing my lecturers becoming one successful psychologist really inspires me to be one. Looking forward to help people undelying their needs to resolve daily conflicts. The benefits of this course is that I've learnt how to manage my problems appropriately. Futhermore, the interest is there and on top of that, I find it is a very noble profession and relevant because everyone of us need a psychologist or counsellor (if they afforrd to have one) to help them realise some things that may not be seen with naked eyes. I've choosen my path.
A not-so-famous but should be maxim "If a thing's worth doing, it's worth doing it badly.
Proper updates soon. Perhaps. *menjeng mode*

I m kinda bored right now because I m actually in the library (civics), waiting for hubby to come back from work. Bleraghs. I decide to update using my hp. Hehe. Try test. Wuhoo.. So convinient. Can check my mails too. I was listening to this perfect ten just now when they broke out the news about a married woman in united states who gave birth to twins but different father. Complicated??! Haha.. For sure it ll be quite messy when comes celebrating father's day ehk? Rare things like this was said to be possible wherby the process can take place twice within 24 hrs. Haha..
Twins. 2 Father. 2 different DNA's. What a jinx. Haha. Not really. The more the merrrier. I guess. Pity the kids and the FATHERS.

Hiatus Mode Like Again!

Hiatus Mode.

See you when I see you.

Just being plain lazy to update when there's plenty things to talk about.

But, but, but.

I have all the time to edit my skins.

How contradicting.

I won't ramble much on my daily rantings basis coz it sucha BORE!

On a lighter note, I've decided to open up another account for private entries purposes. *Mentelz*

K Bye!

Start off with Saturday morning, 3 families from fartenal side come all the way from Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. Me and Mum busy cooking for them.. The food was delicious(mcm menyambot kedatangan dorg mcm sambot menteri jer).. Ketam and udang sambal, lemak labu, sambal belacan, telur masak kicap.. They finish up all the food.. (Da mcm Pirhana kan? Hehe.. Tapi syiok tgk dorg mkn)
For the first time bf got to meet them. Nervous ehk Bie?? Told ya, I have alot of relatives local and not locals.. Hehe.. But it went well.. Me? I got bullied by small kids.. However, I think they went beyond control.. My Newphews.. They will just kick you in rebellious manner.. When you scold them, they will scold you back.. And one just pop up this questions which definitely made bf in awkward position.. He asked bf " Are you in love with my Busu(Aunty in Malay, tats me)?" Mind you, he's merely 10 yrs old.. I find it quite disturbing and disrespectful.. I don't know.. What you think? About kids nowadays?

Sunday, badly i wanna avoid myseld from being bullied, I decided to have my own plan with gf..In the morning, woke up, took my last exams.. Yeahhhaaa... Finish school already.. Waiting for results.. Head to Vivo.. Lunch-ed at BK- Spicy bla-bla.. The new meal.. Walk around... It gets bore after sometime... Eye-ing for this dress/blouse whereby I can wear it in multiple ways.. COOL!!!

"Bie, can ehk? Hehe.. Die2 must hv tao tu dress.. U can suker sexy2.." Lol..

Den head to suntec since gf wana drop off at cotton on.. Nothing captured her attention afterwhich we proceed to Esplanade to watch life performance; Gig frm Manila.. Not bad.. The funny thing is that me and gf were hypnotized by their song that we sang it on the way home..

Took rebound train and dropped at amk mrt station.. Gf went home first whereares me, waiting for dear bg as he planned to sleep over.. Wee..

"Bie, U syg I mcm maner? I tanak ans yg i da pena dgr ehk"
He looked at my me with his blurr-but-cute-nak-mampos-face and said
"I syg u mcm grass uh!! U try kire.. Bape byk tuh??! I mean termasok dari negeri laen nyer grass" .. Haha.. Romantic sgnt2 ehk Bie.. Blueks!!

Tuesday & Wednesday was Bf day as he took personal leave just to spent time with me.. Hehe.. *menjeng mode*

Bf, u said u love seeing my sulking face becoz its cute ryte? Don't blame me if I sulk too much ehk? Serves u ryte.. Kan da parah nk pujok2.. But I like.. Kasi I marah lagi lar.. Den dun ferget to pujok ehk..

Psst... Adibah.. Best tao dpt bf tao pujok.. Ko biler lagi ehk? hehe.. Sayang kao!!

Sinful Indulgence on Thurday with my bubbly girls.

J.co. Mars Balls. Char Kuey. Wantan. Claypot Rice. Not fogetting Mum's Ikan Bakar. Putu Piring with Generous amout of Gula Melaka and Kelapa Parot.

I lost 2 kg climbing the hills just to slack at EMERALD HILL.. Gained back 5kg becoz of nice food.. How am I suppose to control my diet to lose weight? Tell me about it.. Hehe.. Lepas tu perot senak mcm nk muntah.. Pandai sgnt kan..

Slack with the girls at EMERALD HILL was freaky.. Wanna know why? Its just above the expressway.. Dudok biar tertib and sopan.. Tuh Klw jatoh teros GOAL!!! Mengucap byk2 sark.. Satu2 terjuntai kan kaki mcm real jer.. Cam-whore sane sini.. But fun!! Should do it again aite girls..

I'm one happy girl.. K dah! Bye!

Should I change blogskins again? Hehe

I hope its not that late to wish all mothers "Happy Mother's Day"

And to my Mummy Patimah Bti Attan, I wish you a Happy Mother's Day. Thanks for every scarifices you made for us 4 siblings. Love you. May you blessed with good health. Insyallah

Updates soon when I m not busy. Alot of plans coming up. Stay tune!

Monday- Saloon Date with the girls although it was a last minute thing. Met them up at K-One Saloon at Amk Central. Dearest Adibah wanted to rebond her hair. Mentel kan ney gegerl! Pasal siren dier bunyik jgk lar aku update ney blog! Malas uh! Takder semangat!Abv pic was taken in the saloon itself... Sorry for the unglam pic.. And Diba, dari blakang mcm ''momok-tak-jadi''.. Wee.. The 3-rebonded-girls...

Wednesday was promised ''Gym+Swimming Date'' With Gf.. Muke aku tak perlu!! I need to slim down seriously.. Ishk!! Pipi aku jer tak tao camner nk slim down! Ddk umah mencekek jer keje aku! Dah tu tido! So tak perlu ehk!! Bf, i tak kesah! I wanna slim dwn jgk! Pfft!! Lin, muke maintain ehk? Haha

When vainity strikes!! Lps swimming satu2 cam-whore!! Kiter jmp hawtstuff ehk Lin ehk (inside joke) Lol!! Very funny! Its been like maybe 8 yrs or more the last time I swim.. Lupe sey skills!! Masok jer practise breathing skills!! And very honoured ok to teach gf to swim!! Cedebah!! Tak2! DUn werrry.. Dier selamat, tak drown pon.. Ps: Lin pls tag me to convince them tat u're still alive ehk? Lol.. WE nearly got kicked out of the swimming pool b'coz inappropriate wear.. Maklumlah, satu2 takder proper swimming costume.. Ader jer kiter pakai bikini mao meninggal jer satu2.. Lol!! Spent abt 2 hrs swimming!! We really had fun!! Girl, one more time uh!! Kiter gi Jurong nyer pulak!! Wuhooooo

Standard procedure lar kan, after swimming, confirm hungry!! So we decided to have dinner at 724 amk central.. Or kwn as "hady Mirza" nyer kedai.. Sedap? Ermm... Sadly, no.. The gado2 masin.. Case lps mkn can get high-blood-pressure siol!! Mine was average ajer.. Kemot!!

Plan nk lepak bt then cannot make it uh.. Penat sey.. Exercise rabak sey tuh.. Balek wash up teros GONE!! Takder kasi warning!

Remember this chocolates? Yea, Bz muching away while updating this blog of mine! Lapar!! Time check siket.. grrr... baru kul 2.30 pagi!!

Suddenly i wanna eat mee maggie goreng.. Haha.. BF slept over on tuesday night!! Case nk beli jiwe aku yg mem-bare2... He cooked for me mee maggi goreng (abv).. Nice lar!! Ney bkn nk membodek k.. Seriously sedap!!

And to you BF,

Work very hard to get what you want aye.. Remember the things that you've said and promised.. Hope you compromise.. I wanna see results.. Not just words.. No pain, no gain..

Well.. I'm giving you the oppurtunity to blog here as well when you feel there is a need to express something that you know its hard for you to verbalized some things..


To Adibah,

K post aku tak long winded ehk.. Amek ko!!

To Ahlya,

Miss u bitch!! Meet up soon ehk.. *Qish2*

To Sheryl

If u're reading this, nice meeting u up.. Outing soon aite?

To Shidah

Last minute outing pls! Hehe

To Azlina

Jurong ok? Lps gi Jurong Gym go Jurong Swimming Complex then go Jurong Bird Park! Lol

Venting my anger, disappointment and whatnots!!

Seriously, I need a place to vent my anger and the perfect place will be here.
My Saturday was awful!! Don't wish to elaborate on it! Pathetic!! Fucking irr-noying.. It’s a combo!!! 2 in 1 package!! Fucktards!!!!! Outdoor plus indoor.. Ok fine, you got mixed up right? I don’t know what I’m actually blabbering.But...... That’s not important!! For me to know for you to find out!!
Lighter note, thks dear gf, shidah for enlighten the burden although it was a last minute plan.. Apologies for causing you hassles result not spending much time with *insert name*..
Grr.. Where shall I start..First of all, I will not mention any name/S so don’t presume u feel the pinch!!
Seriously, I don’t need that kind of Saturday. It was so wrong!! No comment needed please.. Hell yes, shut the fucking trap.
Worst, making me confessed thus hurting you? Too bad, you asked for it, you got it. No excuses because I just hate the words coming out from your filthy mouth! Pissed!! No! You don’t have to say it anymore. I understand those statement; crystal clear. And no! You don’t have to let the matter left in abeyance. Because I don’t wish to talk about it ever!! Period!
In my room? On my bed? Double disgusted! Freak Morons! What an ass!! You bring shame bitch! Yes you!! Such a disgrace!! Aww.. Not your fault is it? Really? I don’t give a fucking hoot about it.. Packed your bags and yeah.. the door is right in front of you. You are welcome to leave immediately. Disgusted with the evidence. Yes, it’s your fucking business if you want to do anything but please not that kind of way. Looks may be deceiving! In other words, DIAM2 LEPU! No wonder you like sleeping over. And to you, my patience has limits. All these years I’ve tolerate and endure all this shits. Because of you, everything ruined! Thank you so much blood. Blood? I already disregard you as one. Sad? I don’t think so! Because I still have 2 more.. Nah.. Minus one.. Yes left one.. But I’m totally fine with it because this person have no issue with me. .
Huh? You know what, you’re so contradicting but you don’t realise it. You ain’t no big fuck, fucker!! NO!! You said I’m the worst. Look who’s talking? You think from where I gained that kind of “skills” and “knowledge”? You seriously need a mirror and make a reflection of yourself.
And you, you won’t understand the “things” I went through. You just listen and make assumptions that everything was fine! Fine for you, ain’t me! Think by threatening me can bring justice? Lame!! I don’t need you! Nah, I aint searching anymore. My searching is done and over! I’m tired. It’s time for me to make it up for myself. I’ve been silly. Not this time round. I have other better things to do. You or without you, it’s just the same...
Despite the buffet of vulgarities used in the content, I’m just partial satisfied.
We’ll see whats next.
Fuck off!